Inspiration

I hope you guys, if anyones there lol, dont get spoiled by this 2 a day entry but i just am really pumped about this right now. Anywho ive just finished my inspiration board!!! yay im sooo excited. Maybe ill post a pic later, if i learn how . Anyway I have a section on my wall dedicated to my eating habits. i have lots of fun inspirational quotes, and of course THINSPIRATION! which include pics of ballerinas that i admire, swimsuit models whose body id KILL to have, other role models, and bikinis. This should be good for now but if anything inspires me ill be sure to tack it up there :) I have the biggest midterm (anatomy :/ ) of my life on friday and im here blogging lol its kind of addicitng i see why people do it now. i mean even if nobody reads this i feel encoiuraged just by putting my thoughst into the air..errr keyboard :) I wish all you pro-ana's luck and will power because i know ill need it. I ate scrambled eggs with sausage, eggs, and cheese this morning with a bottle of water. im sooo disgusted with myself, i feel heavy. but ive been good hungerwise up til now. im getting the urge to go on a rampage, i want food and its only 5 oclock (east coast time) idk how ill restrain myself til tomorrrow. I have the worst eating habits on the weekends. i generally have classes back to back on weekdays (both early morning and evening) so im too busy to even think about food or stop to consider eating some.to  its actually kinda funny because i absolutely hate food. i hate how its prepared, i question the cleanliness, im scared of improper cleaning. actually thats kinda makin my hunger pains go away. remember, hunger pains are fat leaving the body. well not literally, but soon enough it will. i know you guys may be thinking that because im a biology major i should know better or atleast be hyper aware of the harmful health risks. to answer truthfully i am i think more so than others but i cant help how i think outside of the classroom. i repulse myself. spring break is coming up soon (mid april to be exact) and i wanna surprise my bf by wearing a sexy black 2 piece. I KNOW i can do it , just gotta stay focused! ive been takin all sorts of supplement and other pills. not anything for weight loss or fat bruning. because i honestly dont belive in those. they just convince people that they can lose 30 pounds by just sitting on their ass. FACT: the only way to lose weight is to monitor your intake, regular AND consistent exercise, and burn more calories than you consume. although i know all this it still doesnt make it any easier to drag my fat ass out of bed and go for a run. anyway, i digress, the supplements and other pills i take are to help balance my immune and hormonal systems and eliminate some of the side effects of not eating. I take pills and use oils and drink lots of water to keep my skin stay supple because lack of food and the nutrients it provides can leave your skin dry and cause breakouts. I also take pills to keep my hair thick, and growing, and prevent breakage or other damage such as thinning. because not eating can definetly make your hair thinner and more prone to breakage, trust me i know from experience. i take calcium to keep my bones and nails strong (lol i sound like a nutrionist) . as u can see i take quite alot of things, but i am by no means consistent, i might take it twice a day for a week and then forget for a month.  but i just made a promise to myself, everytime i get hungry im going to blog. its already working.

good luck ladies, stay strong! :)