Here I am in my room asking my self the age old question. Should i do laundry or not? ehhhh, I'm really not in the mood to be stared at by people i do not know in my apartment's wash room. On the other hand, i do have five fingers. so really when you think about it anything's possible :)
But on to other serious issues, I went running today again and it went rather well. Seeing as I despise running I'm proud i made it out for a second time. But I did not go to the gym today (bummer). my bf wanted to get on the road home so i skipped out. and ill admit that at the time i was a little happy to skip, but now i realized im only hurting myself. BTW, my fast started today so Iv'e had 1 apple so far and its going on 3 p.m. I need to find something to distract me if I get hungry. I wish it was Sunday so desperate housewives could be on, ive been a slave to that show since season 1. But im also gunna catch up on some goosip gilrs (havent watched since season 1, i know im wayyyyyy behind lol), veronica mars, (i never found out how that ended), pretty little liars, and SLAT. I loove those shows. but when i sit down to wtch them i always think i wish i had some ______ (insert fattening food here). so, maybe ill bite the bullet and do laundry afterall.
Ive never really confirmed on whether i had a ED. id say yes and no. I dont want to admit it, denial is not just a river in egypt. i like to think that i control my ED not the other way around. Im sooo backwards when it come to food. like seriously we have a love/hate relationship. I hate what it does to my body. But being black i think i have a predisposition to being slightly more curvy than the average gal, i wish it would freakin go away. i want suttle curves. I wish I could post a picture so you could see what Im talking about but Im nowhere near ready for that yet. I mean Im not like super curvy but im not skinny either. its hard to explain, i give up.
I wish I had a friend to keep me motivated, but its not like I can walk around with a sign that says "Need help with ED, any volunteers?", if only the world was that easy...omg i just had a huuuuge craving for french fries. You see this is what im talking about, I get crazy cravings like a pregnant person, which im def. not.
TGiF! preparing myself for a groovy ass night, let the music downloading & movie watching begin!
stay strong my pretties (AND i have another follower, who woulda thunk it? =D
Self Control is the only thing standing in the way of who you are and who you deserve to be.
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