i hate my job, Day 4 ♥

typical. i beg and pray for a job then i finally get one. and i hate it. i abso-freakin-lutely HATE it. the one positive is that it makes me want to do even better in school so i dont have to work in retail for the next 50  yrs.

Im listening to She & Him. both of their albums are on shuffle. love them. they make me feel so peaceful and like im in the 20's lol. its like beach boys meets ....ummm something else amazing :)


Today is day 4. i ate NOTHING! I am completely empty and my weight loss is improving everyydayyy. Ive lost the 5 pounds that i regained, already (in only 4 days!!). so technically im back at square one (so im still   -8 from the original weigh in.) but im happy, nonetheless. because had i not been fasting id probably would have gained all 8 pounds back. which im sure would have pushed me over the edge. i'd have been a cutting maniac. but, i digress, back to positivity.

I just realized that i type so sporadically. and i lack organization. my posts are very random and every paragraph (well, my version of it) is something different. but hey, thats me. anywhoooooo....

I almsot gave into a nasty craving pepperoni lover w. stuffed crust pizza. me and my bf were gunna go down the street and pick one up. but i said no. i thought really hard. and although i realllllly wanted it. i dont want the fat, calories, or artery clogging grease. ewwwww.

I mean i practically float when i walk im soooo happy. i havent eaten in four days. i have never done this. ever. only 6 more! i wonder when its gunna get unbearable. i mean so far its been fairly easy except for the minor stomach growl. im doing ok. hopefully my body is sucking up all my fat.

I have been fantasizing all day about how much weight i could lose this month. and ive been working on my workout plan for the next 10 days. ill be visiting the gym every single day. and twice a day atleast 5 days a week. ill be doing, stair master, leg press, and some light lifting to tone my flabby arms. im beyond excited.
it may sound like im putting too much pressure on myself. but thats exactly what i need :). i like the 10 day challenge. its so invigorating. you guys seriously have to try it. theres nothing like it :) i realized my weakness is saying "Im not going to eat anything but carrots for the next month." only a greek god can do that. im too weak to put food off or even stay focused for a long period of time like that . i think i have ADD. but in little spurts i can exercise some serious self control :)

good luck my beautiful ladies. remember perseverance is the key to success. i loooove all 26 of you! ♥