dark cloud.

but as always im still looking for that silver lining.

which was easier to find after i went SHOPPING! ♥

i got thee absolute cutest pair of brown and black plain leather boots. with it starting to finally look like winter (w. thee exception of today, 74 degrees) i needed some boots that could stand the weather. i own mostly uggs and the rest are made of some freakish material that cant get wet. soooo, it was the perfect excuse to shop! which i shouldnt because i should be saving for spring break. i want to be on somebodies beach. sunbathing. and drinking til my hearts content. and then a little more.

i have an obsession with spending $$$ its so...addictive. i love lovee love shoes. i have a ridiculous amount. and yet, i can never find the right pair to wear.  i also stopped by one of my favorite stores today, Forever XXI. and got a nice little outfit for Thanksgiving. seeing as this will be my first holiday spent with thee boyfriend and his family. im nervous. but i definitely want to look good. im going for dressy casual. a black mini skirt (not too short ), an off the shoulder black and shimmery gold top, and my new black boots. and im going to curl my hair. and top it off with gold accessories i also might add leggings so i dont look like a tramp. ohh and of course i need some good luck. so im painting my nails pink & white. even though it has nothing to do with my color scheme. maybe ill do a neutral color.

it is currently 7pm. i am waiting on my clothes to be free of the dryer. then i have to wash my hair and style it for thursday. and tomorrow i have a full schedule. i have a 8 am class, work 9-6, then straight off to the bf's house. ill be exhausted when i get there. and hopefully too tired to eat.

i wanted to binge sooo badly about 5 minutes ago. i had a subway sandwich earlier. which im sure had a zillion calories. but ive decided to fast until turkey day. i know its only like 28 hrs. but hey, ill take restriction when i can get it. hopefully itll inspire me not to stuff my face with ham and pies.

only a teensy bit of bad news today, i cut. again. dammit! i didnt want to. im lying again. i did. but i held off for a long time. but right before i dashed off to class. i just started carving away. i feel much better now. hopefully by staying busy i wont feel depressed or hungry anytime soon.
my roommate is the thinnest woman on earth. shes probably 5'1 and her collar bones are to die for. she a marvel. and eats like 2 grown men. typical. i envy her genes! shell be my thinspo for now.

And if she doesnt work Minak Kelly definitely will.

Remember,
 i love all 31 of you!
Stay strong Dolls ♥