busy days & long nights.

ive been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. which makes me stress which makes me want to binge. but im doing good so far. im really trying to train myself to resist temptation and not use food as a reward or a problem solver. which is so ironic because food is the root of all my problems (yes, i am being melodramatic. no, i dont care.) eating a cookie or cupcake will not make me happy it will make my thighs spread.

i went down like 4 more pounds but today i me and the bf celebrated Valentines day ..sort of. we're really not big on holidays other than xmas and thanksgiving. so of course we went to an all you can eat buffet. as usual i got full after 5 bites, but i kept eating. i knew i was destroying all the hard work id put in this morning at the gym. but i am not discouraged or even angry. disappointed maybe but thats it. ive decided not to beat myself up because i know when it comes to my bf ill toss the diet and try to just have a normal date. but im usually so obsessed about calories, carbs, sodium, etc that my bf is like are you going to eat that? and i just said fuck it. we hardly go out to eat anymore so i know itll be the last time until spring break. which is like a month away.

the last week ive been half zombie because i wake up at 9 for the gym and then i have class all day then im up til 3 or 4. its crazy how ive managed to not implode. im sooo exhausted but i feel like theres so much to do or learn. im constantly researching recipes, workouts, kitchen appliances, hairstyles, nutrition facts..and the list goes on. i just love the internet, the world is literally at my fingertips.

anyway, i hope you ladies have been doing awesome. im off to catch up on your blogs. And even if i have to staple my eyelids together, i WILL be sleep before 3...fingers crossed.

be safe, strong, and beautiful :)