Day 10 . Finished!

OMG! its finally over. thank God. i feel sooo sleepy. i have finals this week and i havent been taking my vitamins. And the few times i did take them i got really ill because they are supposed to be taken with food. This was definetly the most challenging fast thus far. Not due to hunger pains, which were practically gone after day 2. it was because my body needed the energy. on day 4 i tried working out but 20 or 30 minutes into it i felt so faint i just left the gym all together. I havent been able to stay awake for long periods of time and i stand at work all day. i felt so lethargic all the time. it was awful. but im so proud that i accomplised this.

idk if ive ever said my goal weight, but it was 120. ive decided to change it to 125. right now im 173. its so disgusting. i think ill post a picture tonight. but only if you thin, beautiful girls promise not to poke fun :(. im really insecure about my weight, but arent we all?

Yesterday i joined a new 24 hr gym its the best. and because of the holidays i got a great deal! they offer a lot of classes. i plan on taking, yoga, pilates, and belly dancing. it sounds sooo much fun. its just a really great atmosphere. i got my bf a membership also as an early Xmas present. hes actually trying to gain weight. typical.

On thursday my semester is officially over.im so relieved. ill do nothing but work and work out this entire break. i figure by New Years i can be down atleast 15 or 20 more pounds. Does that sound ridiculous? my bf goes through bouts of worry. i then try to calm him by saying its only temporary blah, blah, blah. it seems to work. he flip flops between supporting me and not. he doesnt want me to get hurt. i keep reassuring him that im absolutely fine.and ive been covering my tracks by telling my parents and friends that ive been going to the gym and watching my diet. everytime thy call i make it a point to say im just walking into the gym or back from a run. so, once they see me they wont be totally shocked at my loss. theyll think im doing in the "right" way.

I want to be in a tiny, tight dress for New Years. havent decided if ill do something with the bf and his fam/friends or go to Vegas with my bestfriend. me and him have had 2 new years together, but this is our first actually being together, in the same state. since im usually home with the family.

I plan on taking my first yoga class on thursday. once finals are done. i even bought some cute new exercise outfits. ill be wearing pink and black :)
im also finally getting to the salon on thursday.

I almost forgot. have you guys seen the previews for Black Swan with Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis? it looks absolutely amazing!! im still a dancer at heart so i have to see it. its only playing in select theatres and the closest one to me is almost 2 hrs away. and since i just got the gym memberships i cant afford the gas and movie tickets. so i wont be able to go. im so bummed! guess thats the sacrifice you make for beauty. i heard it wasnt being released nationally until March of next year. to see if its in your area check out BlackSwan2010.com

so, thats it for me, i hope you girls are doing well :)
all 42 of you!!!